not to be confused with scary ass-people
My parents/grandparents always liked to attribute certain aspects of my character to my sign - stubbornness, extreme motivation to do something once I put my mind to it, my natural curiosity - all very Aries of me. I even have several necklaces with rams on them, which always invoke a tinge of innate Aries pride when I wear them. To be honest, though, I'm not nearly as much like my sign as I used to be. A lot of aspects of my personality - my drive to succeed, my highly competitive nature, constantly needing to be the best at everything, aggressiveness - have vanished over the years, sometimes reappearing in small doses, such as when playing Internet flash games, but never in the things that matter. Even though it might have overwhelmed some, I miss that fire inside me, now a doused little pile of smoking ashes, which I have to constantly keep fanning in the hopes that it will one day reignite. I don't know, maybe it's not that the fire is gone, it's just elsewhere - my motivation is never in the normal games of life (work, societal success, relationships), because those games aren't fun anymore. Videogames are really so much better!
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